what i'd like to say the most are all the things i never did; the things that i've never been brave enough to say. my biggest secret is not one of these things. i've already let that one out. you heard it even if you didn't. i never spoke it from my lips, but from the way i looked at you. you read it on the pages of my skin, the paper thin slates of my very existence. you heard it even if you didn't. it was a sound that could only be heard if you were inside my head and my thoughts. and you were. you were everywhere, especially there.